Today I need to write about me.
As my Twitter followers and readers who read this post know, I have clinical depression.
I’ve been taking anti depressants for 6 months now and I have started seeing a psychologist as well. I think I’m getting better. It’s hard to know with certainty, when I was living in such a dark, lonely place for so long.
In my journey to recovery, there are obstacles. And a new one appeared last week.
I got diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis. I have RA in my hands mainly, my wrists, ankles, knees and elbows. I’m only 21.
I know this post is very ‘Whyyyyy me?’ and I’m sorry for whining. I’ve been stuck for a few days in my ‘off’ phase of depression. Where it’s hard to get out of bed, I cry for no reason and everything feels like it’s too much. All of this plus the new added stress of RA and my medication, and it’s all I can do to not go back to bed for a week.
I write posts like this to help sort my thoughts out. I also write so you guys can learn more about me. I sometimes wish this blog was more personal, but then I think ‘Who wants to read some whiny posts by a depressed girl?’ Probably no one, that’s who.
If you feel like that, I’m sorry. Here’s a link to some pretty nail polish.
I just need to acknowledge my recovery and the battle I’m fighting everyday.
Somedays I feel totally fine, and somedays I feel like I’m losing my mind. On the off days I need to just hang on and ride the rollercoaster through.
I know I’m not alone and I have people who love and care about me, but the off days make me forget, and I need to try and remember.
Depression and mental health is a serious, serious issue. If you or anyone you know needs help, please please talk to someone or check out Beyond Blue. Depression is a silent killer and everyone needs to speak up about it.